Tuesday, January 09, 2007

My letter to Alex

Dear Alex,

Today you will get your helmet. I have so many things I want to say to you about the helmet that I don’t know where to start.

When I was a little girl, I was severely pigeon-toed. I had to wear these huge ugly clunky shoes to correct it. I hated those shoes. I remember walking around the house and the shoes were so loud and so heavy and they hurt my feet.

Now I walk normal. In fact, I do more than walk. I run. Fast. Everywhere I’ve lived or traveled, I’ve run. I ran a 10 mile race along Lake Michigan. I ran a marathon in Los Angeles. I ran on my favorite beach the day before I got married. I ran for the first time with you and Nate on Saturday. You slept through all the bumps while Nate watched the world fly by.

I’m sure it was hard for my parents to make me wear shoes I hated, but they did it because they love me. They wanted what was best for me. That is why you have to wear your helmet. We have to do what is best for you. I wish I could make your life perfect every day and never make you go through anything bad. I didn’t know how hard it would be to be a parent at times like these.

I will do everything I can to make wearing your helmet fun. I will say only positive things about your helmet. I will educate people who ask about it the way I educate people about twins. I will take cute pictures for you to have forever. And I will remember this – you are a healthy and happy baby and that is more than I could ever ask for, yet you are also an angel and that is more than I could ever deserve.

Love,
Mom

7 comments:

Cathy said...

I am sure when Alex grows up he will realize what a wonderful Mom (and Dad) he has! And just knowing that should make you feel good about your decision!! I am sure you are doing the right thing.

*hugs*

AmberP said...

You ARE an amazing mom Laura. That letter almost had me in tears. We do absolutely EVERYTHING we can as mom's do give our children the very best. We would give our right arms for our children - and you know what, like someone had said before, this process will probably more painful for you than it will be for him. He is going to look SOOOO cute in his little helmet. I can't wait to see pics.

I just wanted to thank you for reply on my post on BBC about my panic attacks. It makes me feel so much better to know that there are others out there going through similar situations as myself. I think last night was one of the scariest I have ever experienced in my life. Anyway - just wanted to thank you!

Lindsay said...

That is a beautiful letter, Laura. Thanks for sharing it!

Beth said...

OMG, Laura. I hope no one passes by my office door right now because I'm in tears. You and Jon are amazing parents and Alex and Nate are so lucky. Thanks for sharing the letter. Can't wait to see cute pics of Alex in his helmet! I wonder if Nate will be jealous that he doesn't get one! :-)

Lori said...

Why do you make me cry this early in the morning?

Alex and Nate are so lucky to have such a wonderful mom!

Libby said...

I did cry. That letter is so sweeet, and sums up perfectly just how much we wish we could simultaneously protect our kids from and give to them. By the way, the helmet does look adorable!

Marcia (123 blog) said...

I'm reading blogs IN THE OFFICE and I'll confess that I got a bit teary-eyed!

What a beautiful post :)