I took Alex to a pediatric plastic surgeon at UNC yesterday for his helmet evaluation. It took all of five minutes to get the prescription. I try to keep my blog positive but sometimes I do a big disservice to my feelings by only talking about the good things or putting a good spin on bad things. Here's what I really think about Alex wearing a helmet.
It really sucks. It makes me cry whenever I think about it. Why does my sweet little angel baby have to wear a stupid ugly helmet. Why can't his head and face just be normal like everyone else's. All of his hair is going to fall out and that sucks. I hope it doesn't hurt him because it will break my heart.
I know it's the right thing to do. He won't remember any of it and his face and head will be normal the rest of his life. I was with him for 2 hours at the hospital yesterday and he was so good.... smiling at people, playing with his toys, talking to me, touching my face and smiling... he is just so happy that I'm scared to death to do anything that will possibly change his extremely sunny disposition.
I had a good cry last night then started looking for information. As my grandma Pat would have said, "Stop having a pity party for yourself."
1 comments:
Laura I am so sorry that you have to go through this with your little man. You know what, as a mother I completely understand. I have never had to deal with but I feel so sad for you. There is a little babe in town here, they were in the grocery store and he was wearing a helmet - so stinkin' cute! I know that it probably isn't any consolation to the way that you are feeling. Remember that all that we do as parents isn't always going to feel right, we aren't always going to feel like what our little ones are going through is fair - but we do what is BEST for them. And that's all we know, to do what's best.
Don't you EVER worry about typing out how you are feeling. We deserve to let it out - we aren't given that opportunity very often that's for sure.
*Hugs* to you my friend.
BTW I LOVED your comments on the what do YOU feel when your baby cries thread on the May board!
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